I've got it bad... (and that ain't good)

[gwendolyngrace]

So, yeah, it's been a while since my last general post.

Main thing to make public: I've found a job. Yay. It's right back at BIDMC, but it's in Facilities Management, learning (among other things) how to manage new buildings, backfill of newly opened space, and engineering operations. Should be interesting, and I've heard nothing but good about the department. My two bosses (Engineering and Operations) give off no crazy vibes. So far. Starts Monday.

The book signing at Balticon was a blast. We're already talking about putting together a "sequel" and possibly another project for next year. My cousin's wedding was fine, but it took until Saturday night (at the after-party) to find anyone with whom I had anything in common to talk about, so it was fairly boring most of the weekend. (If you haven't bought "Bad-Ass Faeries," go order it!)

My father has left Baltimore and took a couple weeks getting up here. He's coming in to Boston today and will stay presumably through the weekend, I'm not sure exactly when he leaves yet (but after Father's day is a good bet). Our only planned activity is a Boston Duck Tour, because neither of us has ever been on an amphibious troop transport. :^D

Because I'm going *not* going to be looking for work for a while (really, really, I hope!), I'm looking at auditions again. I really want to be in something this fall, not just helping out on production. Lots to do this upcoming season, so yeah, gotta get back in the swing of that.

I'm also looking forward to working again. It's good to have someplace to go in the morning, and I know (ironically) that I'll lose weight when I'm working - I'm annoyed that I actually gained weight during this layoff period. Sitting around with nothing to do but snack, dammit. (Work will fix that. So will getting in a show and rehearsing in the evenings.) Lately I've been doing the temp thing, though the jobs have been *insanely* low-key, really just getting paid to sit around, answer the phone and emails, and the rest of the time read fanfic. Which I've been doing. A lot of.

Because...here's the thing: I found my new fandom. I fell hard. Supernatural pwns me. I've been watching it intermittently since about mid-first season, but not religiously, and not even all that closely. Thursdays at nine? Yeah, usually in rehearsal, or packing to go away for the weekend, or whatever. So even though I'd have it on in the background, it wasn't, like, appointment TV. And I hadn't even really approached any of the fanfic, despite all you wonderful flist-people telling me how awesome it is.

So, two things happen: 1. etakyma gets the Season 1 DVDs and we started watching from the very beginning (the first ep I ever saw was 9, "Home"); and 2. I get this job at MetLife and have nothing to do all day but read fic. Which incidentally, I had to do by saving files to a flash drive, because I couldn't get to LJ on their servers. Ahem.

Anyway, that's done it. I'm well and truly hooked. Completely obsessed. It's kinda like the rush of those early days of HP, and that's kinda weird too, because given the spoilers about S3 (I'm reserving judgment and I won't talk about them here, for those who want to be spoiler-free), I may again be entering a fandom just as the source material is peaking. But who knows?

What I do know is that I've got an incredibly frightening crush on Jensen Ackles, way too much for my own good. Again, this is odd, because I was *aware* of his character on Dark Angel, but didn't really pay attention to him on the show. Then again, he was (IMO) not even as good-looking then, *too* young and hadn't really filled out the way he is now. Now he's serious man-candy. Sigh. Sorry, grouchyoldcoot! But be comforted by the fact that a. he's way too young; b. he's got a girlfriend; and c. it's not like I'd have a chance anyway.

So, the upshot is that I'm working on a bunch of SPN fic, devouring the episodes as fast as I can get etakyma to share them, and delving deeper into the fandom online. Most of the message boards (supernatural.tv, winchesterbros.com, television without pity) kind of scare me, and I'm trying to cultivate that healthy fear to keep from teetering off the edge. But oy, it's hard to resist the information. We even bought the comics because I just have to know!!! I'm such a geek.

And I was even so t00by as to start a community (mainly because I couldn't believe there wasn't one by the name): wee_chesters. Of course, no sooner do I do this than I find out about spn_flashback, sn_flashback, weechesterfic, and a bunch of similar comm's, but that's what happens when you're late to the party. You don't know what stories people have already told.

And I really, really wish I could go to 10-year, but there's no way, even before my father decided to visit this weekend. I keenly miss AEthelmearc.

I still suck at guitar. But I suck on many different songs and chords and strums. It's amazing how many songs one can play with G, C, D, A, D7, Am, E, and Em. Though apparently none of these is the one I need in "Seasons" for one particular change. Hope to find it soon - maybe at Pennsic if not before. But I can't barre to save my life. And any chord requiring 4 fingerings? Forget it. Changing chords? Also kind of a problem.

Jeez. Looking at the last few months of my life like this really sums up how lame I am.

Does anyone else ever wish they could get a do-over, like from college on? (With all experience and knowledge intact, of course.)

Comments

[bakestondone.livejournal.com]

As to the last question hun.....HELL YES! YES YES YES YES YES YES YES

Right, I guess that would be an affirmative.

[nmalfoy.livejournal.com]

Yay for being employed! Always a good thing.

I don't know if I'd want a do-over. I've thought about it from time to time... I just don't know. Sometimes I say no, and sometimes I say yes. I lean towards no, though, because I don't want to end up a housewife with kids. Nothing wrong with that at all--I admire women who can do that. But kids are NOT my thing.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

I don't want kids, either. I think the top three things I would change would be:

1. Not getting married
2. Going after an MFA in theatre
3. Not moving back to Rochester and wasting 10 years.

[etakyma.livejournal.com]

Yes, I know I got you hooked, because we weren't watching it until I found out one of my friends was deep into it, and then I watched a few and you started watching it with me, and I understand your obsession really is ALL MY FAULT. And while I know you like to see and re-see and re-read (which is why I deliberately left the comics at YOUR house) until it is practically memorized.

Regarding your big fangirl crush, well, he is pretty drool-worthy. And you are so cute about it, with your computer wallpaper and all.

And, apparently clowns kill.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

OMG, it IS your fault! Well, it's a little bit Heidi's fault, but mostly yours.

How often can we say that it's YOU roping ME into something and not the other way around?

[grouchyoldcoot.livejournal.com]

He's on your *computer wallpaper*!? Grrr.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Yes, but you've been a pin-up in my office for years, my love.

[chrystie69.livejournal.com]

I've been a fan of Supernatural since it started...thank the gods for Tivo! Also available on Itunes for a reasonable season pass! And I too have been re-watching Dark Angel just for mr. Ackles...yum yum!

OMG has it been 10 years already? Yup, I left several months before it became a Kingdom to move out here...Wow! I know what you mean I go to War Camp at Glenn Linn just to see a lot of my Aethelmarc friends who go there.

Congrats on the Job! :)

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Shh... I have eps on my computer, but don't tell Amy. I'm seriously rationing myself on them.

Thanks - I'm starting to look forward to it, I think.

[hathorx.livejournal.com]

Haha, another one hooked to Supernatural!! *g* And yes, I'm also obsessed with Jensen Ackles and have been since Dark Angel (the man is just too fit for his own good!). As much as I am in love with the show, I'm been quite wary of spn fanfiction, particularly since most of it seems to be wincest... so if you have any recs, let me know :)

And about the spoilers... I was ok with it, until I saw the names they'd come up with! *rolls eyes*

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

I don't mind the Wincest, though I tend to prefer gen or het. But yes, there's a lot of very good stuff out there that's not Wincestuous.

Maygra (maygra_fic has both gen and slash: http://wordsmiths.net/Maygra/

big_pink is very well-known in the fandom and her stuff is mostly gen.

crack_impala does a daily listing by genre, and lists Gen and Het separately from the rest. Their rec's are varied, but at least then you can avoid Wincest.

[hathorx.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the links! I'll have to snoop around and start reading some spn fanfic once my exams are over :)

[jiggery-pokery.livejournal.com]

Does anyone else ever wish they could get a do-over, like from college on?

Only in one aspect: I'd actually domain-squat this time and know who to invest in. Career-wise, all the decisions that seemed like good ideas at the time... really had no good reason for me to take them any differently, if you see what I mean.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Well, yeah, but *you* got Meg, so I wouldn't want to mess with any of the decisions that brought you to that point, either, if I were you!