Warrior's Wyrd: Sing His Song

[gwendolyngrace]

It's one of the ironies of my 'bardic' spirit that when it counts, my eloquence usually fails.

Other people tonight have been able to put into words far better than I the loss we feel:

http://grouchyoldcoot.livejournal.com/57334.html

Joel, I love you.

http://liamstliam.livejournal.com/465382.html

Thank you, Liam.

http://baronessekat.livejournal.com/433974.html

Tina, honey, you know how much I love you and the girls.


http://meirwen.livejournal.com/233945.html

Rosemary and Loie, my deepest sympathies. Now and in the weeks and months to come, say the word and if it's in my power, I'm yours.


patrikia and baronessekat and many others have been compiling and posting pictures and other reminiscences.

http://baronessekat.livejournal.com/433743.html


For when a warrior's gone,
If you but sing his song,
Truly that warrior never dies.

My own words are stillborn and leaden. Everything sounds too trite or too maudlin. I wore "Morguhn" green today and I know that this coming weekend will be an odd mix for me, but that's the way life is. I'll honour his presence in my life as often as I raise a glass or try, fumbling, to explain his significance to those who didn't know him.

The Dragon of AEthelmearc has passed. It still seems impossible and inexplicable. He was a pillar of the Society and a genuinely kind person with an endless capacity to give.

I mourn my friend.

Comments

[erinrua.livejournal.com]

Hey there. I hope this won't seem presumptuous of me, because we don't know each other well, but I just wanted to say ... Amidst all the frivolity and celebration this weekend, should you need quiet time or a moment to simply grieve, I will be sure to tip-toe away and leave you to yourself. And should you just wish a hug or a hand, I can do that, too.

I know grief, perhaps not as great as yours, but I think the heart only knows one size of hurt.

Peace.

~ Erin

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I do appreciate it. I'll mostly be fine. We have such a full weekend. In addition to the EyeCon stuff, on Friday I have meetings and a site visit over at Universal where we're holding our 2010 Harry Potter event, and Saturday night we're to head back over there for a Halloween event, so there will be LOTS of distraction.

And that's good, because he wouldn't want any of us to stop doing what we do on his account.

But I know it'll hit at odd intervals and I'm glad that all my roomies will be good friends who get it, even if they don't share the immediate grief.

And I think you're right. Joel and I were talking about the odd sensation that one can actually feel unworthy to be the vessel of so much grief. It feels selfish and melodramatic, especially when he wasn't my father, my brother, my uncle, my liege, or my lover. But he was all those things, too, in a way.

Family don't end with blood.

I'll be mostly okay, I promise. I won't be a flood all weekend!

[erinrua.livejournal.com]

LOL, well, if you do feel the need to be a flood, we'll understand. *Hugs!*

See you soon, and don't forget to rest up between all that busy-ness! *G*

[grouchyoldcoot.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you can't sleep, sweetheart.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

I finally forced myself to go to bed around 2 and called Dave at 6:30 to tell him I'd be in late. Then I grabbed another hour or so of not-so-restful sleep.

I'm still dissolving every time I see an email or message about him, but I think throwing myself at some work will be a good thing.

I have to pack and make ready for Florida tonight, so lots to do and to help force me to keep moving on.

[chrystie69.livejournal.com]

When you get back let's get together and remember together....Remember the wonderful man! *HUGS*

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Sounds good to me. I think we should have a "wake east" for him.

[chrystie69.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a great idea :) Raise a few glasses of Scotch to a great man!