gwendolyngrace | Angst. Woe. Screw it. (Reply)

I lost my sunglasses (prescription) sometime Wednesday - morning, I think, on my commute. The MBTA has such STELLAR lost and found, but I haven't had time to even try to find out if they were recovered. I really don't want to have to spring for new glasses (or sunglasses either).

Car: still holding on. The belts smell of burning rubber after about 10 minutes running, but otherwise Ashley is still puttering along. I put $9 of gas in tonight, bringing me to just over half a tank, which I hope will be the last time I have to gas the car. Because....

One of the guys in the Wellesley Players put me in contact with a dealer who buys at auction for private buyers. Huzzah! What I've been looking for for a year. We talked about models and prices and he's now On the Case. Tomorrow he'll be bidding on a 2005 Kia Sportage with 36K miles, still under factory warranty (Kia = 10 years / 100,000 miles). If it doesn't pan out, well, there's always next week.

He actually came to meet me at the dance studio, where I was because I was watching tonight's Cabaret auditions, trying to prep myself to audition Sunday. (More on that below, under Specific Angst.) He pulled in just as things were finishing up, which was perfect timing. I gave him a very modest deposit check in case things go well and he'll text me the VIN# in the morning just on the chance that something is hinky about the car. There's some general angst here - I mean, hell, I've only met the guy now for 5 minutes, but we talked on the phone Monday and about 14 times today. I trust Ed, who gave me his name, and I very much doubt that the dude is gonna make off with my few hundred bucks.

So with luck, within a week or two, I will have new improved car.

I mentioned watching auditions. I've never tried doing this before, and I honestly don't know if it's helping or not, but I went tonight to see who was there and how they were running the auditions and I'll shamelessly admit to get a glimpse of the dancing. The dancing Michael's having them do is a teeny bit tricky, but nowhere near as difficult (or strenuous) as the dancing the other choreographer had us do for the Cabaret auditions in Concord.

But I'm not sure whether it helped or hurt to be there. And furthermore, I had some definite second thoughts about the song I picked - particularly as the key is a little high. Here's where

etakyma shakes her head at me and says I'm nuts for twisting myself up over an audition, but dangit. That's how I roll.

So. I came home and went through my music. They are not *encouraging* people to sing from the show but they're not saying we can't, either. And one of my anthology books has "Cabaret" in it - in the *right key* and not adjusted up where it fits on the treble clef. Hm.

Part of me says, "Fuck it. Sing the damn song. OWN it. What can you lose?" Well, you can always lose - if you play counter to the director's expectations, if you are just NOT what they want, etc. - and singing from the show sometimes can backfire if they think it means you've made up your mind how to do the part. (Also if you screw up? Not so good.) But. If you really, really can sell the song, sometimes it can pay off.

Other options include "Easy as Life" from Aida, which I love but hesitate to do because I've never practiced with the piano accompaniment; "Sara Lee" which they've seen me do in the Wellesley Cabaret *and* which I don't even have in the key I used then; my original planned "Best of Times" from La Cage, which I fear will sit higher than I want it to; or yet another song from the show, "Maybe This Time" - which they actually asked someone to sing this evening after she'd sung "Defying Gravity" (She had a great voice, but it was not *gritty* at all; very light and bright, so I think they wanted to hear her in the range of the role).

I mean, hell, if I'm gonna sing from the show, go for the gold, right? I also need to NOT SING tomorrow / Saturday because while I was in really good voice this morning, apparently I overdid it somewhere and on the way home when I was testing out my planned number, the voice was doing some Bad Things.

Oy. Angst. Woe.

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And Random Act of Guilt: Haven't got a card yet for

bosvyle. And it's already way after 11 - yikes.