Dammit

[gwendolyngrace]

How do you learn not to want?


...On the bright side, it looks as if Gulf Wars may be on.



(You know, I'd still be depressed, but I'd understand if I did a bad job on the song, or screwed up the dancing. But I rocked. And it still did NO FUCKING GOOD. Because I'm not a size 4.)



More running around to do on the car: I need an insurance agent (which I don't have!) to sign my paperwork *before* I can go to the RMV *before* I can get the two different inspections. Right now I'm hoping to get all this done, maybe by taking tomorrow off. We'll see.

Oh, and on my way out the door to auditions I found a note from my landlord: "Congratulations on the new vehicle. Please make prompt arrangements to remove the old one from the driveway. Significant snow will be here before we know it."

WTF, Glenn? It's been 48 hours - and the WEEKEND. Give me a few weekdays before you bitch at me? Besides, I get 2 parking spaces, dude. Your car can get in and out. If I wanted to leave it there all winter, it doesn't affect my lease.

And of course, ninety things went wrong on Friday when I skipped out to get the fucking car in the first place.

GRRRRRRRRRRRR


(I need a really PISSED OFF icon - luckily I don't need it very often, but when I do, grumpy!Dean is NOT ENOUGH.)

Comments

[briony530.livejournal.com]

You're gorgeous and it's insane that not being a size four knocked you out. This was for Cabaret?

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Yup, this was for Cabaret.

As someone said to me when they called the people to stay and my name was not on the list, "I guess they're looking for Liza and not Sally Bowles."

Cause y'know? If she's a whole package like that, what the fuck is she doing stuck in Berlin in a 3rd-rate club?

I dunno. There's an *outside* chance that they weren't keeping Sallys (Yeah. Right.), but in my experience they NEVER don't ask the lead contenders to stay.

[briony530.livejournal.com]

Plus, hello! Set in the 1930s, isn't it? When size fours were not held in the high regard they are now.

Stoopid.

[baronsteffan.livejournal.com]

A lot of places have town ordinances that vehicles without license plates can NOT be kept outside. Rochester is one such place, and the landlord gets ticketed (with fine) if it happens.

You might be running into that right now.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Possibly. But the car will be picked up tomorrow, so hopefully that's soon enough.

[nmalfoy.livejournal.com]

It may sound strange, but you were likely TOO good as Sally. Remember, she's not supposed to be all that good at what she does.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

It's a nice thought, and yes, I know exactly what you mean, but unfortunately, that's not what this was.

I just heard from the president of the group, who also auditioned: the director cast *all* his own friends and a lot of people whom he cast three years ago when he did "Seussical" for us - and only *one* person whom we consider to be a regular member of the group was cast in a leading role (and in fact, she was effectively "pre-cast" and although I love her to pieces, she can't sing the role of Fraulein Schneider).

I was on director search committee when we *interviewed* him, and we specifically talked about the problems we had last time when he did this, loading the cast with his groupies, and he sat there and fucking LIED about not doing it again.

[nmalfoy.livejournal.com]

Ah, but did you check him out? Many directors do this shit, but they get a rep for it after a while. And you know how small the theatrical community is-- so you can make sure everyone knows he pulls this shit.

And now you know he can't be trusted. He can't be much of a director if he's not willing to do what's best for the show, instead taking the coward's way out and casting all his buds. The show will suffer and I'm sorry to hear it.

[gwendolyngrace.livejournal.com]

Yeah, this is a guy whom we know, he's worked with us as an actor and a director before (and not just 3 years previously), but this is definitely a case of "twice burned."

It's a pain, and in fact A says that now she will "not even ush" as a support to the show, and she's thinking of writing the president later when she's calmer and can put it rationally.

I mean, sure, we know that directors pay lip service when they're interviewing, but GRRR. There's just no two ways around it: I was robbed.

[nmalfoy.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you were. I've never heard you sing, but I know you can from your speaking voice. And, in my mind, you have Sally's attitude down pat. I can SO easily see you as Sally, and I'd be curious how you play it, esp. her relationship with the MC.

Hey, look at it this way. You know the guy's a liar, right? That's something. And make sure (channel your inner Slytherin) that everyone in the theatre community hears about this.

[nmalfoy.livejournal.com]

It's interesting to talk about this with you--anyone watching from the outside would be all "Oh, look at her whine". But it's not a case of not getting a role you wanted. Sometimes you ARE robbed. It. Sucks.

[grouchyoldcoot.livejournal.com]

That really sucks, kid. I'm sorry! I know you really wanted that role; to lose it because the director isn't doing his job must really hurt.

[mg4h.livejournal.com]

Oh, geez. I could SO see you as Sally, really. We had a production of it here in Pittsburgh last year, and we got lucky - we had front-row center seats. It was incredible, and having just seen it so recently, you would be PERFECT as Sally. Wow.

Jerk.